You Hurt Her

You say you're sorry
but how it hurts
you say you're sorry
but the bruises appear
you say you're sorry
but the babies saw
     and now fear
you say you're sorry
that you love me?
you say you're sorry
but you hurt me again!
you say you're sorry

finally..........

finally................

finally...........................

I DON'T BELIEVE YOU ANYMORE!!!

Now.......

I'm learning
this isn't what love looks like
I'm learning
REAL MEN DON'T HIT WOMEN
I'm learning
babies shouldn't fear daddies
I'm learning
I AM LOVABLE
I'm learning
I deserve better
I'm learning
It's ok to walk away

I'm STRONGER
I'm a good person,
     a great mom

I WILL SURVIVE!!!

                                 by Hollie Derr

Homeschool day # 24 (2014/2015 school year)

Stayed up late last night watching Criminal Minds.  We are trying to finish the last season before the new one starts!  :)  So I had trouble waking up but did get up and tried to take a walk, had to turn around at a spider web with a big spider in it!!!  Oh, how those things scare me!  Today was NED day.  (No Electronic Devices day).  No TV, no DS, no iPad.  The Littles were outside after Bible before breakfast.  Then the older three were working on school, ugh I have a slight headache but the two littles were back out, one of them dressed as Mario!  Finally, last weeks school was complete! Woohoo!  My headache was worse but I had packets for this week made before lunch which we ate together as a family at the table!  :)  After lunch I took ibuprofen (I had already applied oils more than once!  Love my oils but this was an ibuprofen headache!)  and went to bed.  I thought I would just lay there and rest for a little bit while the meds kicked in before Glenn left for work.  As Honey was saying goodbye, Kayson fell out of his high chair!  bonked his head pretty good!  These boys scare me sometimes!  Tonight we decided to go to church, the kids had started asking about going on wed. nights.  They really enjoy this church.  Kayson chose to wear mismatched shoes, not a battle I felt like fighting!  lol.  Glenn got to meet us at the church for dinner.  We love grabbing those moments with him.  :)  The kids enjoyed their classes:  The olders are together and tonight was service night so they went somewhere and helped make bags of food to hand out to those who need it.  This was a stretch for me, letting them go.  Then they were later getting back and I was having to tell myself all was fine as I'm sitting in the hallway trying unsuccessfully to keep three littles boys calm!  Cayden loved his class after he decided it was ok to stay!  He's 8!  He's the one so unsure of the new classes but he was also one of the ones asking to come!  Silly boy but he really enjoyed and wants to go back.  :)  The two littles are in class together too and they had a good time.  I decided to join the ladies class.  They are Starting a Beth Moore Bible Study.  Wow, its been a few years since I did one! This will be my second time through Breaking Free.  Now we are home.  Kiddos are in bed, the house is quiet, after this I think I will crochet on Christmas gifts.  I cannot elaborate on the gifts as I want them to be surprises and my daughter now reads my blog.  Hi, Kirsten!  :)

Vacay day 8 - arrive home!

oops, I realized I totally forgot to blog about arriving home!  lol, so here goes.
9 am - up and getting going.  already had breakfast and loaded up and getting gas.
10 am - Hello Louisiana.  Pit stop at a Pilot.  Glenn found a cool Key chain with lots of little clips attached to it that he got for his keys.
12 pm - Lunch!  Stopped at Duck Dynasty.  The store was closed but we decided to stop and get some pics.  I was surprised at how many people were stopped to take pics even with the store closed. Then we went to Willie's Duck Diner.  That was neat and the food was good.  A guy from the show was walking around with a duck call and shook Chris's hand.  I loved the biscuits!  Glenn loved the banana pudding!
4 pm - TEXAS!  Felt so good to be back in our home state.  Stopped at the visitor's center for a pit stop.  That is a nice one!
5 pm - HOME!  Glenn and the kids got the trailer unloaded while I worked on school packets for the next week.  It was good to be home.
I'm sure I would've had more to say if I had done this sooner!  lol

Vacay Day 7 – Start HOME!

8:00a – Wake up, breakfast, load Silver, unhook trailer, dump trailer, send everyone to the restroom, lets get going!

9:30a – Goodbye state park, first movie playing on the Derr Mobile Theater, math paces are being worked on, I’m catching up on the vacay days on the blog.

11:00a – Goodbye FLORIDA!  L Let’s turn around, please!  lol  Oh no, traffic!!!  Thought we would never get off that bridge!  Pretty scenery though!

12:30p – another tunnel!  I really don’t like those!  However, I tolerated this one better, I didn’t freak!  lol  Pretty buildings!  I love columns!  and the trees!  There were beautiful trees too!  :) Lunch at Wendy’s.  Then we gave everyone their candy from the candy shop for dessert.

2:00p – Mississippi!  More driving, more movies, more math, crocheting on Honey’s blanket, a pit stop here and there, a new idea for a reward system for school next year!  Then finding a treasure at a gas station for the new reward system!  J

5:00p – make it to Jackson.  Find an RV park for the night.  WHEW, its HOT!!!  The RV is stifling!  Walked the babies to the playground while Honey hooks up.  I think I might be melting!

6:30p – resting in the rv with a vent blowing directly on me, trying to get cool enough to think about dinner!  Then a dinner of leftovers and Sandlot 2.  More crocheting on my stripey blanket.

9:30p – BEDTIME!!!

Vacay day 6 – Last Beach Day

We arrive at the beach.  Kayson decides he doesn’t want to play in the water so he spends the morning sitting in the shade of the umbrella, playing in the sand.  Keegan finally decides its ok to out a little farther in a floatie with the big kids.  This is the second day I have had my camera, not just my phone, out on the beach.  When I wasn’t using it to take pics, I had it in a Ziploc baggie to protect it.  I think I got some pretty neat pics, maybe I will have some time to look at them while we travel home.  Kirsten still wore a tshirt under her swimsuit, I didn’t.  We both had been to protect our shoulders bc we got burned the second day.  :-/  You could tell we were all tired, we had some not so great attitudes a few times that day but we still had a great day.  There were some storms around us, didn’t rain on us but the wind picked up pretty good!  The waves were stronger and our umbrella almost blew over, we had to lower it and our floats started to blow away.  One of the zebra floats got away and we couldn’t catch it and landed on the dunes.  Well, the dunes are roped off and you aren’t allowed on them, understandably so.  So, we are minus one $2 zebra float.  We could see it just sitting there stuck on the dune, everytime we walked passed someone would look for it and say hey there is our zebra float, I see it and everyone else would stop and look for it!  lol, I know, we’re weird!  J  Then it was lunchtime.  We brought a picnic lunch and ate it under the park pavilion.  We went back to the beach and all worked together to build a sand “castle” well, it really ended up being more of a sand “city” compete with a moat, volcano, tunnel and even the Dallas Cowboys stadium!  lol  That was fun.  I went to find some clams to decorate it with and felt something bigger when I dug my hand down a little, picked it up, realized their was legs attached to it, scared me and I tossed it and saw the crab scamper off really quick!!  lol  Then everyone got tired of building.  Kirsten went to read under the umbrella, I got back in the ocean with Keegan and Cayden.  Everyone was tired though and we soon left.  I almost cried!  We wanted to see a little more of Destin, we found a build your own frozen yogurt shop.  Mmmmm, that was good.  Then we found a local candy shop with some really cool candy you don’t find that often.  Everybody go to pick something for later.  Then we went “souvenir” shopping at Walmart.  I got a cool Destin magnet, Kirsten got a little jar with colored sand and little shells in it, Chris wanted a deck of cards and all the boys got Ninja Turtle masks!  We decided to splurge and eat out since it was our last night in Florida.  We found a restaurant that reminded us of Bennigan’s called Beef O’Brady’s.  It was good.  The boys enjoyed the baseball game that was on the big screen TVs that were everywhere!  J  Then it was back to the RV for some sleep!

Vacay day 5 – RAIN!

The clouds were so beautiful this am!  So fluffy!  We got out to the beach and got everything set up, were already playing in the water and I started noticing dark clouds out in the ocean and they came closer and closer and closer till they rained on us!  That was fun.  The ocean water was cooler and felt great, after the rain the sand was cool to walk on.  I saw three fish about a foot long swimming together and we saw lots of little bitty fishes everywhere.  It was neat to be out in the ocean during the rain.  Kayson and I played in the sand for a little bit.  Then we took the kids up to the park pavilion bc they were having a wildlife demonstration.  That was neat.  We saw an owl, so pretty and majestic.  They brought two baby opossoms.  They were so cute and tiny.  Then we had a little more beach time before heading back to the campsite for lunch.  We had jumbo black olives with lunch and the boys loved putting them on their fingers!  Then it was rest time.  Glenn and I laid down and the babies watched a movie.  Kirsten had me show her how to get my blog on her phone and she started reading it from the very beginning.  She would be like Mama you put that in the blog and I would be like yea, I wanted to remember it!  lol  We had baked (on the grill) potatos for dinner.  Mmmmmm……those were good!  Great flavor!  I crocheted some on my stripey blanket that evening.  I love watching yarn turn into something beautiful!

Vacay day 4 – more BEACH!

Have I mentioned I LOVE the BEACH?!?!?  lol  Same plan as yesterday, up, breakfast and find the beach!.  We saw a beautiful yellow classic car in Destin.  The plates said California, wow, that was a long drive!  J  When we made it out to the beach and chose our spot it was right by a big sea turtle someone had made out of sand.  That was neat!  Although, it wasn’t there by the time we left, Kayson has this thing for stepping on sand sculptures!  lol  His age???  We found more clams, they are fascinating creatures.  More waves, love standing out and just letting them hit me.  I would love a float for that but the babies usually confiscate those!  J  I put some sand and water and clams in my hand to see if they would dig and they did.  It tickled.  That was neat and I even got a neat video of it!  I am not normally a big fan of selfies but I have actually taken quite a few on this trip.  lol, sometimes its about the only way I get in a pic unless I specifically tell Honey he needs to take pics.  J  I love taking pics of the waves.  The ocean is so amazing.  God is so amazing to create something so very beautiful for us to enjoy!  I love our beach umbrella, it has such vibrant colors!  A lot of people have one exactly like ours though.  lol, guess they shop at Sams too.  At lunch we introduced our babies to the movie Sandlot.  They loved it!  Before dinner we took the boys to the playground for a little bit.  Then dinner, then bed.  J