Monday, February 11, 2013

Lord, I love You!

Lord I love You
I worship You
I adore You
I praise You
You are awesome
are mighty
all powerful
and everywhere
There are not
words enough
to express
all of You
Lord I love you

By Hollie Derr 11/30/04

Friday, February 8, 2013

a look back at Derr ISD over the years

As I was going to sleep last night, I started thinking about everything that has happened to us since we started homeschooling. Each year has it's own set of unique trials and experiences. This (our 5th year) has been the mildest so far and we are actually fairly on track. Yea!! :) I had this picture of homeschooling paradise and while I would call it a paradise, it certainly has not been the scheduled, done by noon with plenty of field trips and experiments splattered throughout that I had imagined! (At this point every homeschool mom reading this is laughing!) :) So I thought I would share a little about each year so far.

Homeschool year #1 - Kirsten/3rd grade, Chris/1st grade, Cayden/2 yrs, Keegan/still baking and being born
I get ready to start the year with complete A Beka curriculum sets, a teacher planner full of plans for everyday, a school room and a schedule. I've got this! Let's go! Two or three weeks in and I'm already calling Honey in tears, that's it, I can't do it, put them back in school!! (2 hour math lessons and tears everyday from my daughter was NOT fun! We eventually figured out, A Beka was too aggressive of a math for her and I was requiring her to do everything on every page and it was just too much! Took some seasoned homeschool moms reminding me who the teacher was and that it was ok to skip repetitious items.) My Honey, who was already completely in love with homeschooling, very calmly talked me out my tears, assuring me I could indeed get through all this and then had a talk with his daughter. Crisis averted. Sept comes with hurricane Ike making his way up into our area. Knocked our power out for 2 weeks! We schooled outside quite a bit, or by open doors and windows. Dec brought us a new baby 2 days after Christmas, I had already planned to take all of Jan off for our adjustment period. Hello Keegan, welcome to our family! :) Then hits Feb. '09 I dutifully start school back up. Let me aside here, Feb. 7, 2008 I had a miscarriage. So here I am, postpartum, trying to start school back and then hits the one year mark of my miscarriage. Also, I don't handle change well and we had a lot of changes that normally wouldn't have bothered me but bc of the other things already going on in my head, they did. Like a new, bigger than I wanted, flat screen TV, all the pine trees being cut down on our property. I felt like I went crazy! One day I drove in to meet Honey for lunch and my daddy (who just happened to be in longview that day) had to drive me home bc my panic attacks were so strong and non stop! That was a scary, scary time. Honey had to take care of the house, we missed 2 weeks (at least) of school, it was crazy! Somewhere after all that, I realized, we had to throw our schedule out the window, I had to readjust all my plans just to try to get through what they needed to for the year. In spite of everything, we managed to get most if not all of every book done and felt that we were able to declare our first year a success while also realizing that some changes in curriculum would be necessary for the coming year.

Homeschool year #2 - KED/4th, CDD/2nd, CMD/3 yrs, KSD/just a baby
So I gathered curriculum, deciding to make math easy and just bought the total math books from Sam's. Other curriculum was gathered at used book sales mostly. So we started the year. Nov. brought Glenn's dad being hospitalized. That began a several month long journey of hospitals, surgery and nursing home, during which time we were in Shreveport what seemed like more than we were home and Glenn used up all his sick/comp/vacation time to be close to his dad. Several times we didn't know if he would make it or not, every time he did. Sometimes he was in ICU and the babies couldn't see him. There were many tears. We home/car/hotel/hospital schooled that year! We did a lot of worksheets. I would hand them a small stack of worksheets from various subjects, stapled together each morning for them to do that day. When they were done with those, they were finished for the day. Thus began the use of packets in our homeschool which we still implement (although modified) today. I discovered how invaluable the Comprehensive Curriculum books (which I had bought at Sam's also) can be in a pinch! We didn't even have a Thanksgiving that year, our Thanksgiving dinner was spent at Golden Corral in Shreveport so we could be close to the hospital. Christmas Day was spent at My FIL's bedside at the hospital. He was waiting for open heart surgery would happen in Jan. Even Chris' bday party in May that year was held at the nursing home where my FIL was getting rehab so he could be there too. Late Jan or early Feb of that year we also found out Kayson was on his way! I was so worried maybe the babies weren't learning all the things they needed to, especially since mostly all they did this year was worksheets. We got them tested. They were above their grade levels! WooHoo, somehow we could label the second year of homeschooling a success!

Homeschool year #3 - KED/5th, CDD/3rd, CMD/pre-k, KSD/1 yr, Kayson/just born
By this time I was learning what curriculums did and did not work for us, I discovered Bob Jones Bible Truths and this was our first year to use them, love them, still use them! This was the year Apologia science really began to click with Kirsten, we wait till 5th grade to start that series now. We also used Learning Language Arts Through Literature, loved it! We also decided to throw any schedule out the window and continue using packets. I did realize, however, that the packets had to consist of more than just worksheets so they would also contain a sheet telling what should be read out of what book, or anything else I wanted accomplished for that day. Sept brought a new addition to our family, with a longer than we wanted hospital stay. Then I was getting sick every few weeks or less and was getting worried. Right before Thanksgiving we discovered that it was my gallbladder and right after Thanksgiving I had surgery. I couldn't lift my 2 month old for almost a month per doctor's orders. Needless to say, not much work got done during this time at all! January came with Honey's knee surgery first and then the flu, once again school was put on a back burner! That spring was a whirlwind of Glenn in school, Chris in soccer and renovations on the house! Whew, makes me tired just thinking of it! We barely got through 1/2 of our books and I decided to switch to A.C.E. math mid year and that put us even farther behind in math and I am still trying to get Chris caught up. I'm not sure we were ever able to fully come to the conclusion that this year was a homeschool success but we were happy to have survived it!

Homeschool year #4 - KED/6th, CDD/4th, CMD/K, KSD/2 yrs, KPD/1 yr
I made the executive decision that we were going to start this year fresh, we were not going to worry about wasn't finished last year and start over (except for math, we really needed to lay a good foundation here and this was the only subject I was worried about them being behind in, so we were going to finish math). I figured after everything we had been through the last few years we just needed a fresh start with out worrying about the work that was left undone the previous year. This would be the first year that I was not nursing or pregnant while homeschooling. I was really hoping for a somewhat uneventful year, I kept thinking we would eventually have one that ran for the most part smoothly. This would also be the first time I had taught one to read! We started out strong but then my life fell apart. I was bullied at church of all places and the pastor chose sides against us as did my in-laws. The things that were said about me (and still being said) tore me up inside. I had never felt so much hate in my life, I never could've dreamed people could be so cruel. I do not say this to slander anyone, or to make it sound like those people have won but I say what is the truth. You cannot change what has happened. You can learn from it, you can heal, you can be strengthened but you cannot change it. This was a very difficult time emotionally for me. God is faithful and He has lifted our family up and is holding us in His hands as He heals our hearts! Yes, there is still healing happening but let me tell you, we finished school, all the books that needed to get done got done (with the exception of catching up in math). I believe the Derr Zoo is a closer family. I see my babies loving to read the Bible together, loving to sing to Jesus, still loving to go to church and I just smile! At the end of the year as I was throwing away empty workbooks and putting away the non-consumable books on the books in waiting shelf and seeing all we had accomplished in spite of people trying to rip us apart at the seams, I had to praise God and consider Homeschool year #4 a success, a complete success! Honestly, maybe the most successful year yet! :) and in the end, I can smile!

I look back over these years and wonder how we got anything done! lol Seriously, though, I look back over these and realize just what all God has brought us through, what He has carried us through. I look back on these years and see His hand everywhere bc I know there is no way we would have survived without Him! No, this homeschooling journey has yet to be my imagined paradise but maybe it has been better bc my children are learning invaluable life lessons that can't be found in books. All this leads us to this year and although it is only half done, I will leave you with a few things about it.

Homeschool year #5 - KED/7th, CDD/5th, CMD/1st, KSD/3 yrs, KPD/2 yrs
It was exciting to start this year, feeling confident in curriculum choices, having a planning system that works, a loose schedule that we can somewhat follow, knowing we are ready for the next grade bc we finished what we needed to. The two olders were still starting this year a year behind in math, we decided to catch Chris up so he is doing two years of math this year but Kirsten is just doing one this year, she won't finish school with as much math as Chris but I think that is best for her as she is not strong in math and it stresses her out. I am so excited to see Cayden reading. For the most part this year has been fairly uneventful, oh we did get behind with Christmas (no school in Dec.) and sickness right after. Glenn changing jobs is a big change for all of us but we are so proud of our future police officer! We are mostly where I wanted us at this point in the year in almost all our subjects. I love homeschooling and being able to see my babies heads light up with knowledge. We are so grateful for our homeschooling/parenting journey. We are blessed. I feel confident that we will end this year strong with the Lord by our side. Thank you, Father in Heaven for loving us and keeping us safe, In Jesus Name, Amen!

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

My babies' strengths

Kirsten
-Smart, loves history and reading and Bible
-Artsy, she paints, draws, loves doing anything creative with her hands, she was making flowers out of wire and beads just a few minutes ago to go with her valentines for KVNE to take to the hospital.
-cleans, she loves washing the dishes and we love that she loves it! :) it's so easy to ask her to help out around the house bc she is so great at it and does her work so thoroughly.
-mothering, she takes such good care of her little brothers, so loving with them.

Chris
-our comedian/clown, makes everyone laugh, loves telling jokes, I tell him he might be the next Tim Hawkins! lol
-smart, so awesome at math, does a lot of the work in his head and no one taught him that, he just sees it
-loving, he loves his family and can be so sweet with his little brothers
-also cleans, he can do an excellent job, when he puts his mind too it
-helps, loves to work with his Papaw Mike and his daddy and learn new "manly" things :)
-very charismatic, such a people person

Cayden
-smart, is reading and doing so awesome learning his addition and subtraction
-helpful, he loves to help Kayson
-loving, I love getting his hugs and kisses
-loves music

Keegan
-smart, he was recognizing letters before I had even started trying to teach him
-imaginative, I love to listen to him playing and making his characters talk to each other
-loving, he just loves Kayson so much
-good memory, he can remember songs after only hearing them once or twice, loves to sing

Kayson
-oh my what do I say about this little guy, he is so full of joy and happiness, just keeps us laughing and he is such a loving, loving baby and the faces he makes, he makes more faces than any baby I've seen! He is so silly, just like Chris!

I so love watching my babies grow and get so excited to see what they will make of themselves! :) We are so blessed with each and every one of them. They add so much to our family lives with their individuality. I love to see their smiling faces everyday and feel so blessed to be able to teach them the things they need to know.

Father God, show my (Your) babies how to use their gifts for You. They are so special. I know You have something special planned for each of their lives. Be with them as they grow up. Help me to lead them where they need to be. Help me to be able to see and encourage the special gifts You have placed in each one. Help me always remember how special each one is to You. Guide our family in your path. In Jesus Name, Amen!

Saturday, February 2, 2013

Spiritual ABCs

A) Adore God! He is all-powerful.
B) Believe
C) Confess
D) Delight in God!
E) Express a need for God
F) Focus on God
G) Give thanks
H) Have humor - LAUGH
I) Invite the Holy Spirit's guidance
J) Journal - write your prayers and remember to record the answers
K) Keep knocking on Heaven's door - don't ever give up
L) Love God!
M) Majestic is His name in all the earth! :)
N) Never give up
O) Offer yourself to God - Here I am, Father, use me.
P) Praise the Lord!
Q) Quietly listen and wait for God - The still small voice!
R) Repent
S) Seek Him!
T) Trust God!
U) Unite your will with God's - Pray for Him to show you His will.
V) Value yourself - God values you! God loves you!
W) Worship God in spirit and in truth
X) X-pect God to do great things in your life!
Y) Yearn to learn - study His Word continually.
Z) Zealously Share. Joyfully share. Share love. Share Christ. Share of yourself.
This isn't original, though I don't remember where I first got it, I found it in one of my journals but I did change a few letters to make more sense (to me anyways). :) What would you change?

Thursday, January 24, 2013

the fairy tale version

Once upon a time there lived this little family a way out in the woods. They really loved their country life as it gave plenty of space for the boys to run and explore. They all loved doing their schoolwork and couldn't wait each morning to get up and get started (hey, it's the fairy tale version!) The big sister was like a second mama, she was always so patient and loving with all the little boys and they adored her. At any given time you night see a little sheet ghost, or a superman, or a Bibleman. There is much playing with light sabers, toy guns (large, small, plastic, wooden), trains and of course the always loved hotwheels! Schoolwork, meal time and anything else that requires an extended (yes, to a boy the time it takes to eat is considered lengthy!) period of sitting at the table is usually accompanied by all sorts of strange and exotic noises which are promptly frowned upon while eating but who knew it was easier to write a sentence while making gun noises?!? I love to see the gentling influence their sister has on them though. I love to see the littles so gently caring for their sister's baby doll, loving it, feeding it and making sure it is covered while sleeping. So sweet. I love hugs and kisses from my babies and doing nails with my princess. This little family spends a lot of time on their property as all the little princes are not so fond of shopping and the Queen gets tired of trying to chase them out from under clothing racks! They do enjoy a good trip to the royal park in the next kingdom on occassion to find other little princes to play with and queens to talk to. It's not all fairytale, there is no royal nanny or maid, laundry stacks, toys get left out, babies get sick, mama gets tired and some days school is just not happening! However, the fairytale days/moments make it ALL worth it! I love to see their faces light up when they learn something new. I love to hear them singing about Jesus. They love the song God's not Dead and any TobyMac or Hillsong kids! Current conversation, oldest prince - "Mama, what's a radiator?" queen - "part that makes the car run" oldest prince - "that's the engine!" queen - "well, if the radiator's not working the car's not going to run!!" LOL! Did I mention the palace is ALWAYS LOUD!!!? It's almost time for the queen's royal nap with the youngest prince now that the cook has fed the little family grilled cheeses and chips. I hope you enjoyed this sneek peek into our tiny kingdom and that you live happily ever after. :)

Sunday, January 20, 2013

Christmas at Meme and Papa's (finally!) :)

Sorry to all my faithful followers (haha) that I have neglected to write for so long. I just know you have been anxioulsy awaiting my next blog entry! lol As I sit here at my Meme and Papa's house in their back room and I am surrounded by my sleeping family, I find myself not sleeping and I keep thinking that it has been way too long since I typed a blog. So, I thought I would fix that. I think my babies have officially recieved their last Christmas gift for the 2012 season! They opened their gifts from Meme and Papa today, Hello Kitty headphones (the kind that cover your whole ear!), more Star Wars fighter pods, a drawing board that glows, a circus DS game and bowling bugs with an elephant flashlight. Everyone was finally well enough to get together! We all love coming in to see Meme and Papa. They are such special people. I got to share what I am learning about essential oils and Roseanne came over after everyone had left and we talked about crocheting and she showed me some new things and was showing me how to read a pattern (I might need another lesson in that!) The babies got a box of hand-me-down toys and that kept them busy for hours! Papa just loved the boys monkey PJs. I love to see them all matching! That would be thanx to my Mama! :) I know this is sort of scattered, I'm pretty tired but just not sleeping. The babies also showed off their scentsy buddys. We had a lunch with enchiladas (2 kinds) and guacamole and queso and chips and ranch dip and meatballs. Tomorrow we will head home after church at Meme and Papa's church and lunch somewhere. The babies enjoyed seeing their cousins? (what would you call my cousin's children to my children? and is it wrong to just tell my babies to call my cousins aunt?) Totally random thought here, The yarn I am currently crocheting into a scarf right now is purple and really should smell like grapes or lavender! lol Oh, yea we had a discussion about texting acronyms. Oh, yea, I totally didn't mention about stopping at Texas Best Smokehouse on the way here for lunch, Mmmm, that was so good!!The babies really enjoyed spending more Christmas $. The littles bought these long stuffed snakes, Kayson's has a rattle in the tail! Along with some little figures (pooh and toy story) and Cayden got some tin toys (a little crank music tin and an airplane). Chris got a bunch of $5 items, a battleship (offbrand) travel game, finger lights, magnet rocks and a new joke book (just what he needs, another joke book! lol). Kirsten got a stuffed really cute pink patchwork little horse, some pretty rocks and a bag of sunflower seeds! :) I think they have had a really great weekend! I love my babies!

Thursday, August 9, 2012

You Are God You Are Lord

God You are Lord
You made me.
You made the earth.
You saved me
And lifted me up
When I was weak and failing.
I was falling
And You raised me.
When I tripped
You caught me.

You are God you are Lord.
I called unto you
And you heard me
I cried out
And you answered me

You are God you are Lord.
You died for me when I was lost.
But I am now found.
I am now strong and prosperous.
And I'm rising up instead of falling.
Thanks to that day I found you.

God you are God you are Lord.
Praise your magnificent and powerful nam.
I love the way it comes out of my mouth
And the way it sounds on my lips.
You are God you are Lord.

By: Kirsten Derr